[Zulius always wonders what Zero does on her days off. Does she go for long walks? Binge-watches Netflix? Does she go to sleep hanging upside down from her ceiling? It's a mystery!!
Regardless, he's happy to see her as he swans about the place, getting it ready for the latest performance. ]
I'm always here, Honey. You doing okay? You know it's your day off, right?
[Honestly if she had greeted him with a smile, he'd have been even more worried. Not that what she has to say to him now puts him at any sort of ease. Confusion immediately crosses his face.]
I have thought about what I would like to do with my life now that I am free. Much like a few months ago, I am reminded that there may be other captives out there, much like I was, who are awaiting rescue.
Until I destroy the laboratory that held me with my own hands, I will not know peace. Until I have ensured no one is forgotten and left behind, I will not know peace...
When I am done, I may travel for a while, or I may return right away. I have not decided. All I am sure of is that I must do this if I am to close that chapter of my life.
[This is more than she's ever talked to Zulius in one conversation.]
I wanted to thank you for giving me a chance, and treating me like a person. And...
That's definitely the most she's ever said to him in one setting, and the whole thing has such a weight to it. He wants to pitch an entire shitfit. He wants to scream and rail against this because she belongs here. She can live her weird little cryptid life here where she'd be safe and protected. The Vogue looks after their own.
...But he supposes that's the point. The Vogue can protect her as much as they like. The wolf might not be at her door now, but it's not dead. Not completely. It's terrifying to think of her out there by herself, finishing off what they all started here. But he does get it. She needs that peace. She deserves it. As much as he absolutely hates that she's going to go out into the world and just.
Leave.
Something small and painful tugs at the back of his old memories. Breaks my heart in two, the thought of leaving you. She has a purpose, and currently, it's not here in this city. He hates this. It has to happen and he absolutely won't stop her from doing what she has to do but he still hates it. ]
[He lets out a soft little 'heh' noise. He tries to make his tone sound like his usual nary-a-care-in-the-world patter, but it's not quite right. There's an undertone of worry and grief he can't really mask. ]
Well, obvi! You ARE a person, even if you're like. A weird leggy gremlin who lives in the ceiling and doesn't know what a colour palette is. [Ah. His voice catches a bit there. He closes his eyes, and sucks in a breath. Getting his shit together.] And of course you deserved a chance. And got my fabulous self as a friend, but still, you're totes welcome.
[The smile fades. This is hard. He folds his arms.]
Look. I'm not gonna say I love this, because I super don't. But I get why you've gotta. Just- there's always a place for you here, okay? If you ever get to the point where you feel like you can... come home.
[Right, smile back on, he waves his hand airily.]
At least let me set you up with some sort of fun while you're out there razing buildings to the ground, 'kay? So you don't have to sleep in a cardboard box and eat actual food while you're out there.
[Zero watches him patiently. Expressing emotions isn't her strong suit, but even so, there's something... vaguely sad in her expression. She doesn't want to leave either, but she must. It will haunt her until she does.]
Home. Somehow I like the sound of that. [She looks down for a moment, looks at her hands. When her gray-eyed gaze finds Zulius again, she is smiling. It's faint but it's there.] I will return. I don't know when, but I intend to, when I have had my fill of the world.
[She used to be an adventurer in that other life. Perhaps this was always going to happen.]
I would not turn away the help. I will also write you and Jusis letters periodically, so you know I am not dead.
[The smile is a nice surprise, and it does take the sting out of this a little bit. ]
You've not had the chance to check it out, and it's a whole ass big world out there. Now's the time to do it, right?
[She's earned that much. And she can give herself closure at the same time.]
You better! I need to know all the tea. Also that you're- not dead.
[Seriously Zero, why do you have to put it like that? He considers for a moment, before opening his arms- he's going to give her an option instead of just going for it, because he knows she's not the touchiest person alive.]
[She nods.] I find myself looking forward to it. That is... a strange feeling to have... but I do not dislike it.
[She looks at his open arms for a second, confused. Then he follows it up with a request for a hug. She knows what one is in theory, and steps closer, but with her arms held out unsteadily.]
I will try, but I do not remember such affections... I may be bad at it.
[ZULIUS SHE'S NEVER BEEN HUGGED THIS IS AN EMERGENCY]
Makes sense! You get to do something you've never had the chance before. Like, you can go out there and make a mark on the world that's ALL yours.
[And he's glad for that! He'll miss her, but she's well overdue in finding her own place in the world. He does have to laugh at her attempts to engage with this hug. Oh, honey. ]
Well, lucky for you, I'm not bad at this. I'm a pro. It's easy.
[He'll step forward to put his arms around her, pulling her into a hug. He gives her a gentle squeeze.]
[She is stiff in the hug at first, which is to be expected. But the longer she dwells in it, the nicer it feels. She wraps her arms around him, too, but not too tight.]
It's warm...
[She blinks rapidly as she realizes her eyes are starting to feel funny.]
My eyes are... stinging... Is this...?
[She can't remember the last time she cried. When she speaks again, her voice is rough at the edges, even a little wobbly.]
How is it that I don't want to leave when I know I must?
[Aww, he'll just keep her hug going as she goes through a whole new life experience. He's glad he could give this to her before she went on her world tour of revenge and destruction. Though the fact she's getting emotional means he hasn't got a single hope. ]
Awww, no. Don't you start crying, because then I'm gonna start crying.
[Tears are definitely prickling his eyes, it would be on a day he didn't wear waterproof eyeliner too. He'll give her another little squeeze. ]
Yeah, Honey, that's what happens when you're leaving people behind. But I get it, and hey, I'll still be here once you're all done, okay? Promise. I won't be going anywhere.
I am sorry. [It's genuine, if not awkward... Everything about her is awkward. She wants to get out of the hug but she isn't sure if she should squirm or not. What if he gets mad? Aaaahhhh she sucks at this.]
Good... I would not know where to find you in another city. I know this one well.
[She wipes at the corners of her eyes and looks at her fingertips. Yep, that's tears.]
I will tell you all about what I have seen when I return.
[At least Zulius understand she's an awkward duck, so he does eventually let her go, patting her arm gently.]
Zero, Sweetie, you've got nothing to be sorry for. And right? Luckily I've made my MARK here. Nowhere else is fabulous enough for me.
[Nowhere!!!]
I'm looking forward to it!! [Genuinely. He wants to know how she did, out there in the big wide world. Finally finding herself now that she's got a 'herself' to find. He offers her a smile, not as big and obnoxious as usual. A little more gentle, genuine. ] Literally anytime. You go out there and have ALL the adventures. I'm rooting for you.
[She's grateful at being released, and surreptitiously rubs her face on her sleeve. Definitely not tearing up, not at all.]
I should go. [She starts toward the door, hesitates, and adds:] This place... and the people in it... are precious. I will not forget what you have done for me.
Farewell for now, Zulius.
[She smiles at him, a more tangible and soft thing, and then tucks her hat as goodbye.
Things will certainly be interesting in Europe the next few months.]
action; late august
Zulius? Are you here today?
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Regardless, he's happy to see her as he swans about the place, getting it ready for the latest performance. ]
I'm always here, Honey. You doing okay? You know it's your day off, right?
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She doesn't greet him with a smile, but that's normal. She never smiles really.]
I... am leaving. I don't know when I'll return. I wanted to tell you in person.
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...Wait, what? Like... the city? Why?
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I have thought about what I would like to do with my life now that I am free. Much like a few months ago, I am reminded that there may be other captives out there, much like I was, who are awaiting rescue.
Until I destroy the laboratory that held me with my own hands, I will not know peace. Until I have ensured no one is forgotten and left behind, I will not know peace...
When I am done, I may travel for a while, or I may return right away. I have not decided. All I am sure of is that I must do this if I am to close that chapter of my life.
[This is more than she's ever talked to Zulius in one conversation.]
I wanted to thank you for giving me a chance, and treating me like a person. And...
... Thank you for being my friend.
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That's definitely the most she's ever said to him in one setting, and the whole thing has such a weight to it. He wants to pitch an entire shitfit. He wants to scream and rail against this because she belongs here. She can live her weird little cryptid life here where she'd be safe and protected. The Vogue looks after their own.
...But he supposes that's the point. The Vogue can protect her as much as they like. The wolf might not be at her door now, but it's not dead. Not completely. It's terrifying to think of her out there by herself, finishing off what they all started here. But he does get it. She needs that peace. She deserves it. As much as he absolutely hates that she's going to go out into the world and just.
Leave.
Something small and painful tugs at the back of his old memories. Breaks my heart in two, the thought of leaving you. She has a purpose, and currently, it's not here in this city. He hates this. It has to happen and he absolutely won't stop her from doing what she has to do but he still hates it. ]
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Well, obvi! You ARE a person, even if you're like. A weird leggy gremlin who lives in the ceiling and doesn't know what a colour palette is. [Ah. His voice catches a bit there. He closes his eyes, and sucks in a breath. Getting his shit together.] And of course you deserved a chance. And got my fabulous self as a friend, but still, you're totes welcome.
[The smile fades. This is hard. He folds his arms.]
Look. I'm not gonna say I love this, because I super don't. But I get why you've gotta. Just- there's always a place for you here, okay? If you ever get to the point where you feel like you can... come home.
[Right, smile back on, he waves his hand airily.]
At least let me set you up with some sort of fun while you're out there razing buildings to the ground, 'kay? So you don't have to sleep in a cardboard box and eat actual food while you're out there.
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Home. Somehow I like the sound of that. [She looks down for a moment, looks at her hands. When her gray-eyed gaze finds Zulius again, she is smiling. It's faint but it's there.] I will return. I don't know when, but I intend to, when I have had my fill of the world.
[She used to be an adventurer in that other life. Perhaps this was always going to happen.]
I would not turn away the help. I will also write you and Jusis letters periodically, so you know I am not dead.
[DO YOU HAVE TO PUT IT THAT WAY ZERO]
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You've not had the chance to check it out, and it's a whole ass big world out there. Now's the time to do it, right?
[She's earned that much. And she can give herself closure at the same time.]
You better! I need to know all the tea. Also that you're- not dead.
[Seriously Zero, why do you have to put it like that? He considers for a moment, before opening his arms- he's going to give her an option instead of just going for it, because he knows she's not the touchiest person alive.]
Can I get a goodbye hug?
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[She looks at his open arms for a second, confused. Then he follows it up with a request for a hug. She knows what one is in theory, and steps closer, but with her arms held out unsteadily.]
I will try, but I do not remember such affections... I may be bad at it.
[ZULIUS SHE'S NEVER BEEN HUGGED THIS IS AN EMERGENCY]
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[And he's glad for that! He'll miss her, but she's well overdue in finding her own place in the world. He does have to laugh at her attempts to engage with this hug. Oh, honey. ]
Well, lucky for you, I'm not bad at this. I'm a pro. It's easy.
[He'll step forward to put his arms around her, pulling her into a hug. He gives her a gentle squeeze.]
See? Like this.
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It's warm...
[She blinks rapidly as she realizes her eyes are starting to feel funny.]
My eyes are... stinging... Is this...?
[She can't remember the last time she cried. When she speaks again, her voice is rough at the edges, even a little wobbly.]
How is it that I don't want to leave when I know I must?
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Awww, no. Don't you start crying, because then I'm gonna start crying.
[Tears are definitely prickling his eyes, it would be on a day he didn't wear waterproof eyeliner too. He'll give her another little squeeze. ]
Yeah, Honey, that's what happens when you're leaving people behind. But I get it, and hey, I'll still be here once you're all done, okay? Promise. I won't be going anywhere.
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Good... I would not know where to find you in another city. I know this one well.
[She wipes at the corners of her eyes and looks at her fingertips. Yep, that's tears.]
I will tell you all about what I have seen when I return.
... Thank you again for everything.
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Zero, Sweetie, you've got nothing to be sorry for. And right? Luckily I've made my MARK here. Nowhere else is fabulous enough for me.
[Nowhere!!!]
I'm looking forward to it!! [Genuinely. He wants to know how she did, out there in the big wide world. Finally finding herself now that she's got a 'herself' to find. He offers her a smile, not as big and obnoxious as usual. A little more gentle, genuine. ] Literally anytime. You go out there and have ALL the adventures. I'm rooting for you.
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I should go. [She starts toward the door, hesitates, and adds:] This place... and the people in it... are precious. I will not forget what you have done for me.
Farewell for now, Zulius.
[She smiles at him, a more tangible and soft thing, and then tucks her hat as goodbye.
Things will certainly be interesting in Europe the next few months.]